title: bitter or sweet
ratings: bitchy
genre: comedy

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"DAMMIT HEECHUL!!" was all Estabelle could hear, it was as though she had gone blind and was just hit by a bloody large truck. Damn it, was that really her mom, why the hell must she appear when Belle faints ( In Young couldn't stand her long name), life really isn't fair is it...?

" WHY THE HELL MUST YOU BRING OUT THE FAKE MOM NOW!?!?!?!?!!?!?" screamed Tiffany holding a pair of Christian Louboutin pumps.

"Well, we did plan that she would come out now...And lower your bloody voice and call an ambulance before somebody thinks we're robbing her," he hushed waving his hand in front of Belle's face.

"DAMMIT! And I was about to buy this baby," she said staring at the shoes." Do you know how much this cost??" she asked looking at them. They just stared at her in disbelief, so she replied by screaming at them," 2000 U.S. DOLLARS!!! AND SHE WAS THE ONE PAYING!! GOD DAMMIT!!!" and she began swearing under her breath so nobody could hear her, but you could still hear her since she was practically saying it out. Gosh, someone fainted and all she does is think about the shoes, which cost a lot.

"Then I'll buy it for you, now SHUT UP AND CALL THE AMBULANCE!" Sunye screamed losing her patience to her bratty friend. Tiffany instantly pulled out her phone, dialled the number, took a deep breath, and said," Establle Anderson Kim has just fainted if you want to avoid a lawsuit I suggest you come now to the Christian Louboutin store," she gasped taking in a gulp of air. "WHAT KIND OF PERSON ARE YOU??? HOW CAN ANYBODY NOT KNOW CHRISTIAN LOUBOUTIN?!?!?!?!"
"CHRISTIAN LOUBOUTIN DAMN IT NOT CHRISTINE LUBUTONNE!!!!"
"DO YOU THINK THERES ANY OTHER STORE HERE????"
"DO YOU NOT KNOW WHO I AM???"
"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN BY NO?!?!?!"
"DON'T YOU SORRY ME!! THIS IS TIFFANY FROM SNSD!!!"
" YOU'RE FORGIVEN, NOW SEND A BLOODY AMBULANCE HERE!!!" Tiffany shut her phone gasping, staring at the crowd and yelled again," WHY THE HELL ARE YOU STARING AT ME!?!?!?! STARE AT HER!!!!" pointing at Belle. Heechul, Sunye and In Young stared at her, about to reach boiling point as they watch their friend shouting at the crowd who looked away once she yelled at them.

" Let her, she will just get humilliated," Heechul said stopping In Young who was about to charge up to Tiffany and slap her even though he wanted her to. In Young loosened up, anger still in her eyes, even she have never done that before.

Belle was on cloud 9, her father started loving her again and her mom was there by their side. They were having tea on the porch, playing with a dog that Belle had wanted since young, teaching it tricks and feeding it treats. Then the atmosphere changed, so did the surroundings and the people. She was in a graveyard, at someones funeral, she looked at the picture on the coffin, why was her mother in the picture? Nobody was at the funeral, maybe it already ended... it can't have, the priest was still there saying the prayers...Then it changed again, DAMMIT stop changing, it's like she's in a pensieve, like the one's in Harry Potter. This time it changed back to real life, she was in a white room and she could hear people murmuring around her, she opened her eyes, Kyuhyun pointed at Belle to his friends and everyone gathered around her.

"Hey, she's awake," said Sungmin.
"That's pretty obvious," Kangin said.
"How are you? You thirsty?" asked 'mother'.
"Mom, quiet, and call the doctor." replied Eunhyuk.
"Fine," and 'mother' walked to outside.
"So how are you? You need anything?" Heechul asked.
"I'm fine, did you see my mother?" Belle replied with a question.
"Now about that..." Heechul bit his lips wondering what to say.

Suddenly a lady rushed into the room, screaming at the nurse and Leeteuk claiming that Estabelle was her daughter, and Leeteuk knowing the truth trying to stop her in case Belle faints again. But finally the lady succeeds, she pushed through Leeteuk and the nurse and just stood in front of Belle, staring at her, tears gathering up in her eyes. "Was this in the plan?" whispered Donghae to Heechul. "Nope, this was so not in the plan..." Is this good planning or did the PD's really found Belle's real mom? Heechul thought to himself. The actual plan was to find someone who looked like Belle's mother, and they did so they told her about Belle's condition and asked whether she could act as her mom, she hesitated a little but she still said yes. They had to tell her about Belle's background but it seems she already knows, they just thought that she did a lot of research on her. Who knew this lady could actually be Belle's mother, but what was she doing in Korea? Wasn't Belle's mother an American? But she could speak Korean...Maybe she learned it...Heechul's mind was debating on whether it was real or fake while the others were staring at the lady, who was looking at Belle, who was looking at the lady too.

Belle's mind was racing but she tried hard to stay awake. She fit the description on the photo her father had left in the trash back then. The only difference was that her hair was longer and straight, she was thinner and was wearing glasses.

"Who are you?"
"I'm your mother,"
"What's my name?"
"Estabelle Anderson Kim Hyo Joo,"
"Why the hell did i ask that, you could get that of the net. Erm...What did I always want?"
"A dog,"
"What kind of dog?"
"An English Bulldog,"
"What does this have to do with her being her mom?" whispered Kangin to his mates.
"Shh....*smacks*" was what he got as a replied.
"Why did you leave me?"
"I was having an affair,"
" Wow, that came out straight and easy," Kangin murmured covering his head with his hand, but nobody hit him.
"Ok...did dad know about this?"
"Yes..."
"Ok, get out,"and the boys immediately got up and walked to the door.
"Not you guys, you," she said pointing to the lady.
The lady gave Belle one last glance, tears streaking down her cheek, and left.
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Sorry for the weird/sad? ending, i was listening to a sad song at that point :D

COMMENTS ARE LOVE

Dear Lord,
I know its Christmas Day and I'm suppose to be happy and celebrating with my family and all those, but this time will be different. I've lost it Lord, my patience is gone on a day which is suppose to be for celebrating. I guess my father lost his hope in this a long time ago, instead of being with family, after going to lunch with friends, all father said was "When we go home, we sleep." Dear Lord, please forgive me for the sins i'm about to make, for the swearings and deppresion I'm about to type out, i wished things would turn out differently.

Love,
Joee.
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At least i still remember how to write a bloody letter(i nearly wrote how to hoe, that was oddly quick). I. CANNOT. BLOODY. STAND. THIS. FUCKING. FAMILY. ANY.MORE. GOSHH. see what they bloody made me do, swearing on christmas day, Bloody traditional, maybe it's my Christmas gift since i didnt get any.
HOW FUCKING SWEET OF YOU! For those of you who are reading this post right now, bless your soul and pray it's not like mine. I think it started out from my brother, MY EVER USELESS BROTHER. He usually doesn't help me when i say something, but this time he had to didnt he, I told him i wanted supper not that i was hungry, and yet he had to tell them i'm starving. A simple trip to the dessert shop could make me start swearing again, I AM IMPRESSED!!! WTFUCKKK is wrong with my parents anyway? I said yes already and dare she ask me why i didnt say anything?!?!? I'm not bloody HUNGRY, I just want something sweet since its CHRISTMAS FOR GOD'S SAKE!!!!!!!!To Cindy and Su-zen: I guess i finally found something that can really make me cry, my FAMILY.I think i'd have a better christmas with you guys rather than my own. And Thanks for listening to me grumble and swear and all those things through out this few years, without you guys, i think i'd have burst a few years earlier....Back to family,maybe I'm very soft and usually very hard to listen to and am very demanding, but you have to know, I AM A BITCH AT HEART when it comes to you people, you rarely listen to me, i get hundred marks you smile and say " You must be very lucky that day" When all i did was hardwork and no GUESSING.
 

Well thats all for now, hell nows how i will be tomorrow, maybe back to usual, CRAPSHIT it already is tomorrow, so it will be posted on the day after christmas by just a few minutes.

For those who are still celebrating, don't get influence by me, it's not good.

Love you lord xoxxoxoxoo
 

 The boys were shock, who knew, under those make-up and branded clothes, a fragile little girl was lying there unprotected to the outside world.

"Wow...um we're sorry.." said Kangin a little embarrased by he's hostility to her." We didnt really know your background and with the media and all those..."
"It's alright, people usually think that about me," smiled Estabelle, wiping away her tears with tissues given to her by Sungmin.
"So...why did your mom leave you?" asked Heechul.
"HEECHUL! HOW COULD YOU ASK SOMETHING LIKE THAT?"yelled the 12 boys.
"No, it's okay, i'm not really sure either...Whenever i try asking my dad he just keeps quiet, so.." she shrugged, not looking sad.
"Hah!" Heechul gave a smirk to his buddies. All 12 boys sighed, knowing Heechul, he could get away with everything.

And that's how it all began...stay tune for more ;D